It’s funny how so much can change in small span of time. One fleeting moment can change our lives forever. My one fleeting moment that changed my life forever began with a night in January when we conceived R. Obviously I will spare you details, but all it took was mere moments for a life changing event to occur. From the moment I knew I was pregnant, my life was never the same.
And after those long moments of labor the change was more evident. One moment and our life was changed. You could say that moment begin years before when I decided to attend a new church. I went once, didn’t think it was a fit, was invited to a college group at said church and pulled into the parking lot one Monday night, only to turn around and leave after 2 minutes of sitting in my car. I didn’t think I would return. But something inside of me decided to go again. A few months later Marc made his move. One fleeting moment.
He asked me on a date, and the next thing we knew we were standing at an altar exchanging vows beginning a life together. One moment……
Or maybe it was that moment in high school I decided I would accept a scholarship to Gonzaga instead of staying instate. The decision that would send me to Washington in the first place. The city in which I went to said church and found my husband, got married and started a family. All moments in time. Moments in which my life was changed. Which moment was it that changed my life? You can decide.
So many of lives moments change our lives, either for the better or for the worse. For me it’s all so intriguing to me. We can measure our lives in moments and so much of our life is compared to moments. We share memories of moments. Even those short moments we remember.
Thinking of my life in moments gives me hope and peace when there are moments of challenges. Right now I am in a season of my life that is filled with many challenges, emotionally, physically and financially. I have an education, a Masters in Nutrition and I am a state certified Nutritionist, but yet I am not doing anything with these credentials.
I am in a season of searching. Searching for my meaning in life and what I should be doing. In all honesty, I don’t want to work full time outside of the home with R at home. I always envisioned myself as a professional woman in the corporate world, working full time and leading some company. But now that doesn’t sound appealing to me, nor fulfilling.
One fleeting moment changed my future. I want to use my degree and do what I love, but I don’t want to sacrifice my time with my child. I love being a mom and all the challenges it entails. I believe it would help anyone prepare for any job. It teaches patience, determination, endurance, compassion and love. It teaches multi-tasking, persistence, and compromise.
I also love coaching and helping others achieve their goals and dreams, whatever they may be. This may be why I loved coaching cross country and found so much joy and fulfillment from it. Maybe for a season or moment I will have to work more than I desire, and knowing it’s only for a moment helps.
Life’s moments aren’t always easy to accept, but it’s those moments that help to prepare us for those bigger moments in life, those life changing moments. What I don’t want to do is begin to regret moments in life. Regret missed job opportunities, etc. Our life on this earth is so short when put into perspective. I am learning to accept this, and it’s not easy. Those hard moments and seasons seem to last forever, but we always seem to look back on them thinking of how foolish we were in thinking it was challenging and life we wouldn’t make it, when it was only a small span of time.
Looking into the New Year, I am praying for great opportunities. The perfect opportunity. Where I can do what I love: raising my child and inspiring health in others. Those are some of my greatest passions in life. I want to feel I am making a difference in this world. To me, that’s important, and it begins with my child.
Sorry for the randomness of this post, but it’s been on my mind and heart. This is where I am in life right now, riding out this challenging season…..this short moment in time.
Until Next Time Be Whole and Be Fit