Can You Hear Me

There’s sounds all around.

The voices growing louder and louder.

The louder they grow, the deeper the fear, the deeper the loneliness.

Does anyone hear me? Is anyone out there?

Drowning in fear, losing hope.

Can you hear me God…..I cry out, I pray, I ask.

I hear nothing.

Silence in the midst of all the chatter around me.

Where am I going……

What is my purpose…..Are you even listening…..

His voice grows quieter and quieter, while the world’s louder.

I want answers….I want to here His voice.

But the space is filled with negativity & my own selfish ambitions, my own doubts.

The space is filled with trying to do it my own way.

The space is filled with worldly knowledge & gain.

His voice smaller, the world around me bigger.

My doubt growing…..My faith unsteady.

I am trying. I am praying. I am doing.

But I am not listening.

I am not still…..I am not waiting…..I am not resting.

Be still my soul, the Lord is on your side.

Another day dawns…another sun sets…..

The burdens heavier, the loneliness deeper.

Why isn’t it working?

Why can’t I hear Him?

Is there anyone out there? Can you hear me God?

“Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous, yes wait patiently on the Lord”

“….Let your heart take courage, and wait….”

Where do I find courage in the midst of uncertainty….

How do I stand bravely, when the waves of doubt flood in…..

Lies creep in….small voices of doubt & fear growing louder…..

“You aren’t doing enough…..You aren’t brave enough….smart enough…..rich enough…..pretty enough…..”

“You failed……you failed again….you aren’t strong enough to try again….it’s not worth it…..”

I am trying….I am doing…..I’m relying on myself…..my own strength…..

I look around and everyone seems to get it….is enough

Why aren’t you helping me?

“Rest in Me, and wait patiently. Don’t worry about those who prosper in their own way”

“Come to me, all who have heavy burdens and I will give you rest”

“Give it all to me, every fear, every doubt, every worry, every failure. Leave it here and take My peace, my wisdom, my strength, my LOVE.”

I am reminded to ask and it will be given. Keep on asking.

“I withhold nothing from those I love. My love is not earned, it’s freely given.”

“My blessings not earned, freely given.”

“My strength not earned, freely given…..just ask, rest, wait on me & it will be given.”

My requests, prays & worries are heard, but I am not listening.

The world clouds my thinking, the negativity is louder than His voice.

I allow doubt to grow & fear to enclose around me.

I take my eyes off the Lord of my life.

Circumstances grow harder, challenges insurmountable.

As I draw near to Him….I rest in Him…..I look to Him

The world grows strangely dim…..my circumstances children’s play

My burdens smaller, His voice louder

But more importantly His Love brighter….bigger…in all I see.

Can you hear me God?

“Yes, my child I have always heard you. Can you hear me child…Can you feel my love…because I have not forsaken you. My love always there….my voice always loud…my presence always with you. I am the great I am. ”

“The same yesterday, today & forever.”

“…..take heart my child, be brave & let your heart take courage….then wait, wait patiently for me, I am not finished with you YET!!”