Boy oh boy has it been a busy crazy few days / past week. I am sorry for my lag in writing. We finally got into our house and I have been filling all my free time with the cleaning and unpacking process.
We are not completely settled in, but I think after a few weeks most of the boxes will be put away and we’ll have the painting done so we can decorate.
Through this process I have learned how much energy is needed for moving and how much energy I don’t have. I haven’t taken my health seriously this pregnancy and it has begun to catch up to me.
I have always been an advocate for health, for others and myself. Except for of late. I now push health on everyone else, well I have put my own on the back burner. Doing too much, skipping sleep, running on little reserves and not eating enough on some days. All of this has contributed to my uncomfortable and painful pregnancy, or so I firmly believe it has.
I haven’t nourished my body as I should have or should be. The past few months have been crazy and I am barely hanging on. Exhausted yet trying to run 40+ miles a week while growing a baby, working and raising a toddler. I have reached the point myself of being scared for my health. I realized this as I drove to work last week barely able to keep my eyes open and almost having to pull over. I knew then I’d done to much.
I have realized that moving forward requires me to value my own health a little more. With anemia and morning sickness kicking back up, horrible back pain and cramping, I have vowed to slow down a bit more. I am not invincible and as much as I would like I can’t run on 4 hours of sleep a night and constant moving from sun up to sun down. I keep trying to outdo everyone else or at least keep up with them and it’s killing my body and stupid. I don’t want to make excuses like “I am pregnant” but thats exactly what I should be doing.
I need to slow down and put my feet up. Stop trying to out do myself and others. Realize that pregnancy doesn’t treat me as well as maybe it does others. Accept that while there are no limits, sometimes there are limits!! If that makes sense.
There are limits when it comes to our health and family, and I have been pushing them for too long. While we shouldn’t limit our dreams and aspirations, we should limit the rush, the pressure, the pride, the exhaustion. It’s a balance and one I have to admit I haven’t been good with. It’s pride driving me to push further than I should, and pride that’s pulling me to a health crisis.
I have realized that moving forward sometimes requires a few steps back, more rest and down time. Moving forward requires accepting limits to our health and knowing when we’ve gone too far. Accepting there are no limits to our dreams and goals, but there’s limits to how much we can do in certain seasons to reach those goals. We can’t do it all at once!! Because if we do too much we risk losing it all!!
Until Next Time Be Whole and Be Fit
I love this post! I agree with you that we should do everything as possible because we don’t know what will occur! ^^